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The day I cheated on you...
I knew I was hurting you. I knew I was putting you through something I would regret later. I knew it was wrong and I knew you’d never forgive me. I was giving you a gift you did not need and taking from you what was truly your right.
The right to be happy, the right to be loved, to be respected, to grow, to be free…
I cheated on you because I thought I’d be happy if you weren’t. I wanted to see you rise so that I could see you fall. I wished you’d trust me so that I could take you over the cliff and leave you there for the world to push you down.
I kept telling you that you that you weren’t good enough when you were better than most. I kept telling you, you were right when you needed to be shaken. I promised you the sunshine when I knew I couldn’t get it for you and I took away from you your radiance and tried putting you in my shadow.
When I told you that you weren’t good enough, I wanted to spare you the pain of someone else telling you that – what I did not know was that the world thought you were pretty good too, just like I did.
When I said you were right instead of shaking your core, I wanted to stop you from crying – what I didn’t realize was that those tears were your way of healing, recovering, learning and growing into a stronger and better person.
And yes! when I promised you the sunshine and instead took your brilliance away and put you in my shadow, I wanted you to sit back and take life easy; let the world have no expectations from you so that you could e saved from any unrealized dreams and have no finger pointed at you. – what I did not see again, was that I was taking away from you your reason to live, your will to fight and your instinct to survive.
When I lied my intention was to please you. When I cheated on you I thought I was being your loyal friend.
I thought I was protecting you. I thought I was keeping you safe. When infact I was hurting you.. I was putting you through something I would regret later.
I know I was wrong, I hope you’ll find it in you to forgive me. I hope I can give you the gift of truth and return to you your free spirit.
Give you back, you.
I knew I was hurting you. I knew I was putting you through something I would regret later. I knew it was wrong and I knew you’d never forgive me. I was giving you a gift you did not need and taking from you what was truly your right.
The right to be happy, the right to be loved, to be respected, to grow, to be free…
I cheated on you because I thought I’d be happy if you weren’t. I wanted to see you rise so that I could see you fall. I wished you’d trust me so that I could take you over the cliff and leave you there for the world to push you down.
I kept telling you that you that you weren’t good enough when you were better than most. I kept telling you, you were right when you needed to be shaken. I promised you the sunshine when I knew I couldn’t get it for you and I took away from you your radiance and tried putting you in my shadow.
When I told you that you weren’t good enough, I wanted to spare you the pain of someone else telling you that – what I did not know was that the world thought you were pretty good too, just like I did.
When I said you were right instead of shaking your core, I wanted to stop you from crying – what I didn’t realize was that those tears were your way of healing, recovering, learning and growing into a stronger and better person.
And yes! when I promised you the sunshine and instead took your brilliance away and put you in my shadow, I wanted you to sit back and take life easy; let the world have no expectations from you so that you could e saved from any unrealized dreams and have no finger pointed at you. – what I did not see again, was that I was taking away from you your reason to live, your will to fight and your instinct to survive.
When I lied my intention was to please you. When I cheated on you I thought I was being your loyal friend.
I thought I was protecting you. I thought I was keeping you safe. When infact I was hurting you.. I was putting you through something I would regret later.
I know I was wrong, I hope you’ll find it in you to forgive me. I hope I can give you the gift of truth and return to you your free spirit.
Give you back, you.
1 comment:
Good. Why did you stop blogging. I would love to read if you write more.
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